Unable To Travel For Talaabul Ilm Also Involved In The Fitnah Of Disputes And Wasted All Time In Reading It

UNABLE TO TRAVEL FOR TALAABUL ILM ALSO INVOLVED IN THE FITNAH OF DISPUTES AND WASTED ALL TIME IN READING IT

 السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته يا شيخ

I reached age 30. I'm unable to travel for talaabul ilm due to family circumstances. I also involved in the fitnah of disputes and wasted all my time in reading it.

I don't know where to start again. I am fearing that I can't even study the basic ilm and I am fearing for the hereafter. 

Advise me ya shaykh.

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